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The feeling of Sam responding to the kiss drove all other thoughts out of Daniel's mind.  He pressed her body tightly against his, feelings and sensations flowing through him that he hadn't experienced in such a long time.  And then he felt the tip of Sam's tongue against his lips, and, suddenly, those sensations were like an unstoppable firestorm.  With a little moan, Daniel opened his mouth and let the flames consume them both.  The kiss transformed from soft and gentle to deep and intensely passionate.

Sam felt like she was burning up.  The feeling of his lips on hers, his tongue deep within her mouth, felt so good, so very good.  But it wasn't enough.  She wanted more.  Lowering one of her hands to his buttocks, she ground her hips against his and felt him respond in kind.

Daniel took two steps forward, and then they were on the couch, his body on top of Sam's.  She moaned and clutched at him, wrapping a leg around his hips.

Daniel mouth descended to her neck, kissing and licking at the tender skin.  He knew that this shouldn't be happening, but, at that moment, he didn't care about anything except being like this with Sam.  To hell with what they should and should not do.

Sam groaned at the feeling of Daniel's hand sliding beneath her top, gliding over her skin.  Somewhere in the recesses of her mind, she knew that they shouldn't be doing this, but she didn't care.  She wanted this; she wanted him.

Reaching for the hem of her top, she yanked it up and off.  Stunned by the action, Daniel froze for a moment, then he looked down at her, the swell of her breasts covered in nothing but a thin bra, the faint outline of her nipples showing through.  He couldn't stop himself from lowering his mouth to them, kissing the soft mounds.  He nuzzled at the material, lowering a bra strap so that he could push the cloth aside and reach what was beneath.

Sam's entire body shuddered at the sensation of his mouth on her breasts.  Oh God, it felt so good.  Her hold on him tightened, one of her hands grasping his hip.  She could feel his body's need for her, a need matched by her own.

Sam's bra was gone now.  Where it went she didn't know or care.  Daniel's tongue was bathing her skin, his teeth grazing her flesh.  She took hold of his head and guided it to her other breast, arching herself upward to receive him.  She was now rubbing up against him, and it was almost more than he could take.  He wanted to complete their union, merge their bodies so fully that it would be like they were one person.

It was that thought that finally made Daniel think about what they were doing.  This couldn't happen.

Daniel lifted his head and met Sam's eyes.  The sight of her flushed face and passion-darkened eyes was almost too much for his control to handle.  He fought against the desire to kiss her and won.

"Sam," he whispered.  "We can't do this."

"No.  Please don't stop this, Daniel," Sam begged.  "I want you so much.  I never knew how much you really meant to me until I was losing you.  And then you were gone, and it was too late.  I never told you.  I love you, Daniel.  I've always loved you.  I just couldn't see it until it was too late."

Daniel gasped, stunned by her declaration.  Words welled up into his throat that he could not stop.

"God, Sam.  I love you, too.  I didn't know until what happened with Nirrti.  It was ripping me apart seeing her hurting you and knowing that you were going to die.  I wanted to kill her.  I wanted to destroy that lab and everything in it.  You have no idea how close I came to doing it.  If Oma hadn't stopped me, I really think I'd have done it, or at least I'd have tried."

Sam was crying now.  "Please, Daniel.  I need you.  I need to feel you."

The plea shattered Daniel's control.  He crushed his mouth against Sam's, letting go of all the reasons why this should not happen.  He lifted her off the couch, carried her to the bedroom and laid her on the bed.  He removed the rest of her clothing, touching and kissing her everywhere.

Sam reached for his clothes, intent upon removing them, but there was no need, for, suddenly, they were gone, and Daniel was lowering himself on top of her.  Sam spared no thought for the demonstration of his power.  The only thing in her mind was the feeling of his naked body upon her, his weight warm and real.

Daniel met her eyes, holding onto them as he slowly united his body with hers.  Sam gasped at the feeling of him becoming one with her, filling her in every way, both physically and emotionally.  Daniel trembled at the glorious sensation.  He knew, though, that there was a way for them to be even closer, a way that only he as one of the Ascended could accomplish.

As they began to move, Daniel closed his eyes and reached deep inside himself, past his temporary corporeal form and into the light that was within.

Immersed in the feeling of their lovemaking, Sam suddenly felt something happening, something far more.  As Orlin did that day more than a year ago, Daniel gave himself to Sam, sharing his essence with her, all that he was, the light of his soul.  It overwhelmed her, filled every cell, every molecule.

With their psychic joining, Daniel felt Sam's essence encompass him, become a part of him.  The physical sensation of their lovemaking expanded, and the sharing became complete – physical, mental and emotional.  It drowned them in sensations unlike anything they'd ever felt before, so powerful that they could do nothing but let themselves be swept along with the tide.

Their movements strengthened in speed and intensity, the ecstasy within their bodies building wildly.  And then it exploded inside them, and, with a cry, they plunged together over the edge.

It seemed to go on forever, but, at last, it was over.  Shaking and weak, Sam gasped for breath, too overwhelmed to move.  Daniel gazed down at her as the psychic connection he'd established slowly faded until only their bodies were still joined.  He kissed her face, her hair.  He couldn't speak, for his heart was too full.  He had thought that he loved her before, but now, after seeing within her soul, after having that soul become one with his, there were no words to describe how he felt for her.  She was a part of him now and would be forever.

"Daniel," Sam whispered in a trembling voice.  There were tears in her eyes as she met his gaze.

He touched her face.  "I know, Sam.  I know.  I feel it, too."

Their lips came together in a long kiss.  Daniel rolled with Sam onto his back.  With her body draped over his, he closed his eyes, absorbing the feeling of her deep into his heart so that it would always be there.  He knew that he had to leave soon.  Shifu had been able to remain corporeal for several hours, but he had not connected so deeply, so completely, with someone as Daniel had just done with Sam.  He was already in danger of descending, of being unable to shed his human form.  But he didn't want to leave.  He wanted to stay so badly.  Just a few more minutes.  He'd give himself a few more minutes, and then he'd go.

Sam held onto Daniel, not wanting to let go.  Some instinct was telling her that he was going to leave soon, and it was almost killing her.  She couldn't let him go, not now, not after what they'd just shared.  She loved him so completely.  He had let her inside his soul, and he was now permanently inside hers.

They lay in silence as the minutes ticked by.  Then the words that neither one of them wanted spoken were uttered.

"I have to go," Daniel said.

"No."

"I have to, Sam.  God, you don't know how much I want to stay, but I can't."

Sam slid off of him and stared at him with eyes that revealed how angry and upset she was.

"Why?  Why can't you stay?  Orlin descended.  He stayed, and he descended.  Why can't you?"

Daniel rolled onto his side and cupped her face in his hands, gazing at her intently.  "If the only issue was what I want, I would stay, Sam.  I would give up ascension for you and never look back.  But this isn't just about me or about us.  Something's happening.  I don't know what it is yet, but Anubis is planning something, and I have a feeling that it's big.  I need to know what he's up to.  I have to do this, Sam.  I have to put aside what I want.  I may be the only one who can prevent something terrible from happening.  I couldn't take direct action, but I might be able to do something."

Sam sighed.  "I know."  This was Daniel.  This was the kind of person he was, who he would always be, a man who sacrificed his own desires and welfare for the sake of others.  It was one of the reasons why she loved him so much.

She took hold of his hands.  "Daniel, I want you to know something.  I've been afraid to love, to really give myself to someone because I thought it would always end in some way, that I'd be alone in the end.  When I realized that I loved you and then you went away, I felt like my fears had been confirmed."  She gazed into his eyes.  "I'm still afraid to love you.  I'm afraid that you'll go away and never come back.  But . . . but, now, I'm more afraid to lose these feelings I have for you, the way you make me feel.  I don't want to lose them."

His eyes awash with tears, Daniel smiled.  He then kissed her one last time.  "I love you, Sam, so very much.  I will come back to you.  I promise.  And, when I do, if it's possible . . ." he caressed her face, "I'll stay."

"I love you," Sam whispered, clinging to him for a final few seconds.

Gently, Daniel drew back from her.  His eyes never left hers as he began to lose form, the light enveloping him.  And then he was gone . . . and Sam cried.


It was a couple of months later that Daniel returned, but not to Sam.  It was to Jack that he appeared, warning the colonel that Anubis had a plot to create a superweapon that would assure his domination over all the other Goa'uld and, ultimately, the entire galaxy.

As Jack explained it all to everyone in the briefing room, Sam pretended to be surprised when he admitted that he'd been visited by Daniel once before.  She didn't have to pretend her surprise, however, when Teal'c revealed that he, too, had a visitation from their former teammate.  So, Daniel had come to all three of them.

Very soon, they were on Abydos, trying to find the Eye of Ra, the last piece Anubis needed to complete his weapon.  And then there he was, Daniel, standing right before them.  Sam blurted out his name and was surprised by his abrupt greeting, consisting of a curt utterance of hers and Jonas' names before he turned away.  Though stung by the greeting, she gazed at him longingly, wanting to rush across the chamber and throw her arms around him.  Curbing the desire, Sam got down to business.  They were on a mission, and this was no time for emotions.

Jack and Skaara left to help Teal'c and the others hold off Anubis' Jaffa, leaving Sam, Daniel and Jonas alone, gazing at the wall behind which Daniel was certain there was a secret chamber.  Sam's eyes turned from the wall to study Daniel's profile.  He was frowning, deep in thought.

Unable to remain silent any longer, Sam murmured, "I missed you."

Daniel turned to her.  "I missed you, too, Sam."

His voice was soft and gentle, a tone one would expect from one good friend to another.  But what was in his eyes was so much more.  They looked at her as if he wanted to pull her into his arms and never let go.

All at once, Sam understood the brevity of his previous greeting.  Daniel wanted so much more, just like she did, and he was having to control himself, maintain a distance from her.

Smiling inside, Sam turned her gaze back to the wall.  And then she felt something, a soft caress that brushed across her cheek, down her neck and all the way down her arm to end at her hand, where she felt a warm pressure, as if her hand was being held.  Daniel still stood where he'd been before, not having moved at all, but he had just touched her in the only way he could without being seen.  Sam closed her eyes as the invisible mental touch returned to her face.  And then, somehow, someway, she felt him kiss her, soft and light.

'I love you, Sam,' she heard him whisper in her mind.

'I love you, too,' she silently said back to him, hoping he'd hear.  She sensed that he did.

'I haven't forgotten my promise to you,' he then told her, which made her smile internally again.

Daniel broke contact with her, and she returned her full attention to the matter at hand.

The situation soon turned very bad, and SG-1 just barely managed to make it off Abydos alive.  For days, they tried to dial through to the Abydos gate, but to no avail.  When they finally succeeded and went through, they learned the truth.  Anubis had destroyed everyone, but Oma had ascended them, the entire Abydonian civilization.

Now, back on Earth, Sam was worried, terrified of what had become of Daniel.  He would not have let Anubis destroy Abydos unless he was stopped.  She knew that he'd crossed the line, broken the highest law of the beings they now knew were the Ancients, the gate-builders.  What had happened to him?  What was done to him?  Would she ever see him again?

Clutching a pillow, Sam curled up on her bed, the bed in which she and Daniel had made love.  Closing her eyes, she whispered, "You promised me, Daniel.  You promised that you'd come back to me.  You can't break your promise.  You just can't."


Daniel stood before Oma, waiting to learn what his punishment would be for breaking the rules of the Ancients.  He didn't regret what he'd done.  He only regretted that he'd been unable to stop Anubis from destroying Abydos.  But at least the Abydonians were all safe.  Oma had ascended every last one of them.  No Goa'uld would ever be able to hurt them again.

Oma gazed at Daniel sadly.  "You must have known that striking against Anubis was forbidden, Daniel."

"Yes, I knew.  But I also know that he needs to be destroyed."  Daniel's gaze hardened.  "You, above all people, should know that, too.  You shouldn't have stopped me."

"If I had not stopped you, the others would have.  There was no choice.  And you could not have killed him.  Though he is not fully ascended, your power alone could not have destroyed him."

"Maybe not, but it would have slowed him down.  Now, he's out there with a weapon that can kill millions with a single shot.  He'll go after the other Goa'uld first, and then he'll go after Earth," Daniel's anger deepened, "while you and the rest of the ascended just sit on your asses and do nothing."  He shook his head.  "You know, when I first ascended, I thought it was great.  I thought that I'd be able to do something to make a difference, to help in ways that I couldn't before.  But I was wrong.  I'm more helpless now than I was when I was human."

Daniel walked away, staring up at the sky.  "I can't live like this, Oma." he turned back to the Ancient.  "I won't."

Oma sighed.  "That choice is in your hands.  If the path you are on is not the one that your heart will allow you to follow, you can return to your former path."

"You mean descend."

"Yes.  But you must know, Daniel, that, because of what you did, there is a price to be paid.  If you choose to descend, all your memories will be taken from you."

"You mean my memories of being ascended?"

"Those and more.  Everything."

Daniel was appalled by what she was saying.  "You mean that they'll all be gone?  The memories of my whole life?"

"Yes.  That is the ruling of the others."

Daniel turned away again.  If he descended, he'd lose his whole identity.  But was that any worse that the existence he was living now?  What good were all his memories when he was cursed with the knowledge that he'd never be able to do anything to really help humanity?  If he chose to remain ascended, as punishment for what he did he'd probably be exiled to what was left of Abydos for hundreds of years, just as Orlin was forced to remain on Velona.  Then he really would be helpless.

Daniel thought about the memories he would be losing, both the good and the bad, and he found his mind focusing on one special moment in particular, one of the most beautiful, precious memories of all.  He was going to lose his memories of being with Sam, that incredible night they made love.  That realization made tears come to Daniel's eyes.  Out of all the memories he had, it hurt the most to know that he was going to lose those.

Daniel turned back around.  "Please, Oma.  Take all the rest of my memories, but I'm asking you to please let me remember Sam.  I love her.  To lose all my memories of her, of loving her. . . ."

The sadness in Oma's eyes deepened.  "The others would not allow such a thing.  I am sorry."

Daniel closed his eyes, his heart breaking.  He thought about the promise he made to Sam that he would return to her one day.  Would he ever be able to keep that promise?  If he did, she would be a stranger to him.  He could only hope that, in time, they'd be able to rebuild their friendship and, ultimately, the love they shared.

Drawing in a deep breath, Daniel slowly let it out.

"I'm ready," he said.

Oma nodded and stepped forward.  Her eyes caught his one last time.  "When a man looks upon a great mountain range towering before him, he may think that there is no way to cross, but the bird does not think such things.  It merely opens its wings and flies."

Daniel frowned, wondering what she was saying.  Then, all at once, he believed he knew.  Grasping onto the hope she'd given him, Daniel closed his eyes.  As he felt Oma's power take hold of him and begin the transformation, a single thought repeated in his mind over and over again, the entire force of his will behind it, bent to the task of making it real.

'I will remember you, Sam.  I will remember you.  I will remem. . . .'
 

THE END . . . and to be concluded.

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